I swear I've started to write about Expo...just not finished yet. Believe me.
Now let me just ask, wtf is a relationship all about anyway?
This is probably one of the most personal things I've gone on about ever. I can't work out if I'm too young to know about such things, or if I'm old enough to understand. Should I understand?
As personal-y as this is, it doesn't matter xD this blog might as well be a diary with the amount of people who read it ahahaha.
As a kid you read (or get read) all these fairy tales about poor unfortunate (but pretty) girls who end up getting their dream prince and live happily ever after. How perfect.
In real life it kind of goes like, find someone, fall in love, get married, have kids. break up. How crazy is that?! How can it be true love if it breaks up? So many parents get divorced, how could you love each other so much to even have a kid(s) but then decide you don't anymore? Even examples of this in my own family -___-
What sort of example is that for me? I'm at the age for relationships right now. (Okay even 13 year olds have 'relationships' but they don't even know what they're on about until they get older.) and I can honestly say it's not something I have luck with.
Without sounding vain I can say that people have wanted a relationship with me but they just don't get it. As hard as they try (can be a true amazing gentleman even) I just don't like them that way.
Brain is there something wrong with you?
I even kind of liked someone and when they told me they liked me, I was happy but then didn't like them as much anymore wtf! I got what I wanted but then didn't want it. Saying that I'm not giving up yet. I count it as an almost relationship.
On the few (literally, few. Like oh my god) relationships I've had it's been where they liked me and I said 'yes, lets try.' and it simply didn't work. And I kept trying. I want to have a successful relationship please!
I've fallen for people one-sidedly myself, and that is not a good feeling. At all. Especially when there's no chance of them liking you back. Although it is possible to get over it.
There's got to be this true love somewhere. Or even better, love at first sight *o*
Although if love at first sight does exist I better hurry up and feel it, man I'm getting old! If it doesn't does that mean someone that I don't like much now will slowly become someone I love? How can my opinion change like that?!
Or how about this self- LIKE THE PEOPLE THAT LIKE YOU OKAY? THEY'RE PERFECT FOR YOU. LIKE. THEM. It's difficult when the person who likes you is someone who you're friends with...like I still want to spend time with them but there's gonna be that nagging thought in the back of my head saying 'they like me they like me they like me' and I don't like them back :c
I will be happy if the like is both ways :D I also kind of want to do the chasing for once...is that strange?
Whether it's having strangers asking me out at work or friend's confessing to me, I just want one of them to be something good, something great even.
I dream of having the greatest friend I could ever have and being honestly in love with them, finding nothing bad about them, wanting to spend the rest of my life with them. Being able to talk to them about anything and everything and simply to have fun!
I want to do the thing that so many people don't get. I want to fall in love, get married and stay married. You know when you see those really old couples, still together after years. Like it's adorable when I see my grandparents (gone 80) holding hands. I. Awww. Now that, is true love.
Please send some to me :D
Please?
P.s. This makes me sound depressed or something, I'm not o-o just confused for a little.
That's enough being serious for now.
Bye bye bye bye bye!
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