Totally listening to this right now <3
No wait I lied, listening to Hollywood Girl
Now to the actual point.
Since I was young I've had like ten thousand ideas on what I will be 'when I grow up'. I'm kind of grown up now and I still don't know.
The first thing I remember wanting to be (other than super hero lol) was a pop star. Aahahaha I can't sing! My best friend had this idea that myself, her and I think it was her sister would be popstars.
We even had a song and dance. They could sing- I couldn't. None of us could even dance xD shut up we were 8 or something. Pffft. Needless to say that dream didn't last long!
The first serious one I thought of was probably when I was 9/10 when I wanted to be a zoo keeper. It's not like I loved all animals or something, I just liked cats because we had cats. But I held onto that all the way until the end of primary school.
Between then and getting old enough to be asked at school 'what do you want to be?' I didn't have any other ideas, honestly at that age I don't think I had any ideas about anything because I was so shy of everything and anything wtf.
So when teachers started talking about getting ready and chosing subjects for the rest of your life I was so damn stuck. I just went ahead and picked subjects that I thought I'd like. ICT, Business and Drama (French and Russian because I had to pick languages) with drama I thought, hey maybe I'll be an actor. But god was I too shy! I couldn't do that now even xD then I thought about working with computers. BORING.
Those ideas didn't last long at all. During those years I pretended that working out what I wanted wasn't important, I did the same during A Levels- although I had a fair amount of ideas for careers.
Author, journalist, photographer, model, business person, English teacher in Japan, English teacher in Korea, cameraman, sociologist, psychologist, fashion designer.
Failure.
None of those ideas stayed with me, they were either too far fetched or I just lost interest.
Even now I have an idea of owning a cute cafe with princes and stuff, I've actually planned a fair amount. But I know nothing about business management or baking or even drawing the wall designs the cafe would have. I don't think this dream will last long either D;
So that left me leaving school with no idea what Im doing. So now I work in a shop. I also work with my dad. Don't get me wrong, I love the people I work with <3 damn if they quit the job, some of them I would be so mad at xD like how dare you leave me!
It's great n'all, I get money. But it's not what I want to do. I can't do this forever.
Sure I love a lot of things, I love Japan, I love Korea, I love my blog, I love writing, I love camhoing. Give me a career from all that and I will love you forever <3
Who am I going to be? I really wish I knew what I wanted to be so then I had something to work towards, but instead I just have weeks that blur into one because it's always the same.
Quick give me my dream job now. Thanks.
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