London!

I just love going to London <3

I don't get the chance to go there very often but when my dad came up to me all like 'lets go to London!' I was so excited! Thank you dad! :D

I didn't take many pictures of the day (or buy much, more of my money went to what my sister bought, which she now owes me~)

First of all, there was this shoe shop in Covent Garden (I wish I could remember it's name) which had the most amazing high heeled shoes I have ever seen, and I promise you I am not a heel person, I can't walk in them and own a grand total of 2 pairs of them.

I really really want them, I took these pictures in the shop window, I didn't want to when I was inside, I felt like such a tramp in there xD with all these women dressed like they are going to work in an office, not shopping...ahhhh. I was just staring at them happily, until my sister told me they cost £150 or something -__-  one day shoes, one day.

Then we took the walk to Picadilly Circus (my sister has something against tube trains, and suprisingly, they are really close to each other!) I was so proud of my direction skills, I got us (by this time my dad had gone to meet his friend) from Covent Garden, through China Town to Picadilly, I really didn't know where I was going in China Town since I've only walked through there once before (somebody give me a tour please), but I didn't take a single wrong turn!

I love this thing~



My main reason for wanting to go to Picadilly Circus in the first place was to go to Tokyo Toys and the panda shop, which I think is called Ho Panda (I don't know ><). I didn't get anything in Tokyo Toys, just insisted that Haruhi did not dress the same as Sailor Moon *headdesk*.

But! In the other shop I made my only 2 purchases of the day (ignoring food, drink and headache tablets). First of all I got some adorable contact lens holders, no more boring white ones!

I am not at all biased towards kitties <3

And to make them even better- some pro English on the outside! 

With a creepy cat face looking over the top...o-o



'Happy Day With You!'

'Please be make sure close tightly'

I love it. I also found it funny how Lenses is spelt correctly on the front, but there is a typo on the back! This is where the letters in other languages that I can't read are probably saying 'screw you making fun at my English, how many languages can you speak bish?'

I also bought some stickers for my keyboard! They didn't all fit properly, and I had some left over because they are designed for a computer, not laptop, but I love them anyway! There is one sticker that I put over fn, I don't know what it did before, and now I know even less XD

 So colourful :'D

 And they are not any keyboard stickers- they are English and Korean keyboard stickers! This is going to help my learning so much!

 After being there we made our way to Oxford Street (well, sort of). Once again it was actually close to where we were! I can't believe there are tube stops for places that are all close together xD And again I managed to get there without getting lost (although we (and a crowd) got beeped at by some stroppy driver who was annoyed that nobody waited for the traffic lights and then went to drive anyway, wtf? Trying to kill us now?))

I don't think we quite got to Oxford Street since my sister kept on going in all these other shops xD We also went down to Carnaby Street which looked cool (it wasn't very interessting shop wise though.)

Although there was this shop, which I thought was good, if you like scooters, which I know a little about since my dad is into them- too bad he didn't come with us to see this shop!

This was amazing! You can't tell by the picture but it was like, 3 sections to make the shape.

Globe thing

Everywhere was so Olympics!

On the way to Oxford Street there were so many flags! I went to get a picture of a big group of them but no not 1 bus, not 2 buses, not 3, but 4 buses got in my way at once, and then got stuck at traffic lights! So I have rubbish flag pictures.

Buses.

I only wanted pictures of S.Korea and Japan ;n; (baisedbaisedbaised)

On this road we went into the huge toy shop, Hamleys! I haven't been there since I was tiny, I remember finding it amazing and the staircases were Narnia themed *o* But now, it's not as cool, still GIANT but obviously, I'm too old to find it so amazing any more! Although they had these lifesize legos of the Royal Wedding, which was pretty cool/creepy xD



Why did they make the most attractive member of the Royal Family look bad? ;n;

And after walking round so many shops and discovering it was too late in the day to go to Camden we went and sat at Liverpool Street Station and drank hot chocolate, with this view for about half an hour XD

Finally time to go home! The last picture of the day is simply for lols, at one of the stations, this was their idea of a good paint job. 



Hahahaha, need a ladder? Taller person? Better eyesite? XD

To finish, a photo of me and my sister outside one of the amazing phoneboxes at Covent Garden. Faces edited for her sanity (that face)...and mine. There wasn't time to get another since there was so many people waiting for a photo! But hey, at least you can see my new hair going on here (ahem, on the right.)

P.S. I preordered NU'ESTs new CD and I am so excited! My first K-Pop CD ;u;

P.P.S some moron uprooted a tree near my house over the weekend, how fat/obsese/drunk/stupid must they have been? I want to find them, compare them to a whale, and then insult them with words. That tree did nothing to you! Just happily being a tree, giving you oxygen. Looks like somebody wasn't educated so well.

Idiot.

P.P.P.S YouTube keeps advertising Invisalign at me, when I can't afford it, I don't even have a job yet! Hopefully one day I can ;u;

Cosplay

It is time, for the post about one of my favourite things. I have been cosplaying for over a year now and I really do love it!

First of all, cosplay number 1. Axel from Kingdom Hearts. I bought a wig that was very bright red, so then I had to dye the roots with Sharpie. The fumes, oh my gosh I still remember how bad they were.

Anyway, I don't have many show-able pictures, but since they are old they can be excused for being a little bad.

Hahahaha XD That wig is so poop, I re-styled it for another cosplay, which I haven't even finished yet.

At one point, in a vain attempt to make the wig longer I bought some extentions. But before I had to cut them (because they were really just rubbish material) I took some pictures as Reno from Final Fantasy (I've only seen the film Advent Children but it's good enough for me!)

And next up is my all time favourite as I've said before, Vocaloid, Kagamine Len!





Before I had the clothes~ I happen to be wearing my dads old shirt. I hope I got better at photo editing.

 A recent one with Len clothes <3 I like the pictures my webcam takes!

I love these ones, they are from last summer where our little group had a cosplay day, it was such an amazing time! With Kaito and Rin <3

Also with Len there is Matyoshka cosplay.

There are too many derps of this one.

The third Len one I (or we, my darling group <3) have done is our own take on Trick and Treat. The best photo of this is a group one, with a guy we met on the way to Expo xD I want to wear this again, I love it. And I love these guys!

Onto another Vocaloid! This was a complete spur of the moment, I was bored at home kind of things. Cosplaying my own version of Juvenile Yuki Kaai, who is 8 or something.

This photo is so bad, lets move on now. (omg my old hair)

The next cosplay is the first and only one I have made, Pit from SSBB or Kid Icarus. The only proper picture I have was taken at October Expo (the same as Trick and Treat Vocaloid) by Rin. But, I love it!

Hopefully we will fix our cosplays to wear again <3

Pit, Zelda and Ike.

And finally, it is time for Yukio from Blue Exorcist, which I love. (This summer I will cosplay Shima!) Again, there are no proper photos but I will just take some expo randomness again.

The wig, really needed re-doing.

And since I am now falling asleep, I am glad to say I am leaving it there. All current done cosplays of mine. I love it so much and hope I can keep doing it for a long time in the future <3

Thank you to all those I have cosplayed with for making it so much fun!

Gender, Sexuality and Kim Heechul

The Heechul part is the most unrelated part of this post~ But it happens to be his birthday today, so, Happy Birthday Heechul! <3 (from Super Junior) thank you for making me laugh and for filling me with happiness, thank you for being an inspiration, I hope you are okay whilst doing military service and return to the group soon! Have a great birthday Heenim~<3

To me, you are perfect

Now on to the actual point of this blog post, gender and sexuality. As seen from a previous entry of mine, this is pretty important on my list of important things.

Personally, I hate gender stereotypes, even from when we are born there are certain things that a girl is given and a boy is given, for example baby blue and baby pink clothes, toys and balloons, right from the word go. Why is it this way? That baby may even come to hate those colours. The gender of the baby isn't all that important, the fact you have a new life is. (The fact I happen to love pink doesn't matter, I used to hate it :3) 

And still growing up, there are things that are put with males and females that seem to stick, like the clothes we wear and the interests we apparently have. It bugs me when I go to a shop to get Nintendo magazine and it is in the Men's Interests section, wtf? I am not a man, yet I adore video games.

Ever watched kids adverts? They are so narrow they make pigs fly.

At school age (I can't talk about anything above that since I hardly am myself), it is okay for girls to act like a guy, or, tomboy. But if a boy would act like a girl, he is made fun of, pushed to the bottom of the pile of everything. Now how is that fair? Are females a bad thing to be? Really? No they aren't, so explain your stupid action human race.

People should be able to act and dress however they like without the boundries of gender stereotypes getting in the way, anyone should be able to wear skirts or shirts or whatever. (Heechul looks so hot in a skirt.) 

I think there should be a legally recognised middle gender pronouns, yes they exist, but they are not recognised by the government, or if not this- boundries should be destroyed, no more pigeon holing people into certain ways, it sucks.

I own clothes I bought in the womens section, and some from the mens for cosplay, I don't care, I like all my clothes. I really hope the future would hurry up so old fashioned ways will vanish.

Personally, the boundries don't bother me (*prepares for wtf was the point of this post reactions*) I act in whatever way makes me happiest. But other people out there probably hate these boundries, because its limiting and unequal and unfair.

I used to belong to a youth LGBT website, and there I saw a lot of people running into problems because of their gender views or preferences, which brings me nicely to my next point, about sexuality.

I am a proud supporter of the LGBT community and of course of straight people- oh wait, why did I write those 2 things seperately? Aren't they all sexualities?

This obvious divide is so irritating. In todays society, most people are accepting of those who are not straight, even if they don't say so, so why are we all still spliting straight people and LGBT people apart? Also, where is Straight Pride? Are there any gatherings that can include straight people?

Don't get me wrong I had a lot of fun at London Pride, it was brilliant, but I am disapointed that there is no straight support, or any big reveal straight people can do.

A straight person: I have an announcement....I- AM STRAIGHT. *dramatic reveal*

Or maybe they doesn't need to be an announcement for anyone.

There is a line that needs to be deleted.

We should just all be together, no matter what sexuality you are, what gender you are or what ice cream flavour you prefer.

Screw stereotypes and divides of things, being together is the new segregation~

Even though this post was pretty complainy, I am perfectly happy in my world, this was more of a I am not the only person with opinions on this earth type of awareness post.

And to prove my happy, here is a happy picture :)

Current reasons why I am happy:

- I got to go to the Warner Bros. Harry Potter Studio Tour again, it was so much fun!

- I saw the Olypmic Torch pass through my town, even if it was only a little

- I saw my cousin over the weekend, which was a suprise ^ ^

- I bought new foundation today~

- I wrote a ASDF Movie quote on an iPhone in the Vodaphone store and left it there

- NU'EST released an amazing new MV today. Ren, I adore you. (the lyrics are so meaningful too, makes you feel full of power and ready to take on the world. The world is mine. It's about being different and being THE BEST, and shining at being different instead of a copy like so many people...I could write so much about my love for this song. ACTION.)

Happy flowers and rainbows everyone!

Sexy, Free & Single

Just to take the title of Super Juniors new brilliant song, even though the English is such a fail XD You'd think with a rich company they'd at least employ someone who speaks English to check their lyrics. Ahem *raises hand*.

(T-ARAs Day by Day is really good too, and so is Hangengs new song...and LED Apples~)

Today, I smiled at every person I walked past, and hardly anyone smiled back- I got that kind of 'wtf are you' look, or the awkward smile and look at the ground thing.

Does this look like the face of a teenager who is about to beat you up? What is wrong with people these days. Were we raised to be socially awkward?

At least one guy smiled first.

 

Now onto stuff. Since posting the blog about confidence and appearance and such, I had a big discussion with my friend- and it really did turn out that I was not alone in these thoughts, that she too wants to be pretty (Omg she totally is already, damn her!). Another darling friend told me I was beautiful many times and could be a model (who knows if that will ever happen), but I really felt like I was going to explode with happiness- my heart was so full, like it would burst :')

And that very friend had this on her Facebook.

Here are a couple of things I have saved on my laptop <3

They are just too sweet.

And in life when cows come along:

Exactly stick peron, exactly.

Part 2 Apparently.

On another note, I've been thinking about things we have in life, for example family, friendship, having a job, living in a place where you can have internet and access anything you want.

And how people really don't value these things. 

Family, people say-  oh my family are so boring, they don't get me at all. Well at least you have a family- where is your gratitude? I love my family, in a lot of places they are falling apart and being stuck back together- my parents aren't even married but I am so grateful for everyone, my new family and old, glad they are there for me and love me. And I love them~

Also my mum and her partner bought me this bag back from Brighton (a great place <3) I was so excited and happy! Gotta love Miku :)

Friendship, friends are so freaking special, I love the ones I have to bits, always have, always will. Everyone should understand how important friends are, sure you might argue, but like I said, you love them and I'm sure they love you too. However, friendship isn't something that can be handed to you on a plate, that'd be far too easy- you need to work at them. If you have disagreements, sort them out, become a better person. And then everyone will be happy.

I can hardly express in words how important my friends are to me, when I sit and think about it I get so crazily happy, its overwhelming. I love you. I don't want to ever ever lose any of you, or have less of a friendship with you than I do now. You are all so brilliant I could cry.

I don't get to see one of my dearest friends very often, it makes me sad- she lives perhaps an hour and a half away, but without a car or a train journey it's hard to see her :c Even though it's not the same, I'm glad that there is internet and so many ways I can talk to her now! Also, I am lucky that I can use this stuff to talk to my friends it Croatia, and my pen friend in America too.

Always be thankful for your friends.

Jobs, people complain about going to work all the time. In the morning, I see people looking miserable. But why? You're all going to get money right? Isn't it great?! Maybe you hate your job- but at least you have a job be thankful already. I didn't like going to school so much but I was glad for the chance to, unlike some people in the world. (Hense why I am doing charity stuff with Oxfam- they are great guys!)

Government, in this country- all you ever hear is people ranting and bitching about the government and how they suck and pick on the lower class and are stealing everyones money, it gets boring. Do you ever do something about it?  Campaign? Vote for a party you support? Or do you just complain? ARGH.

Personally, I don't support any party, because I haven't found one that suits me- but then again I don't complain (okay maybe I did complain about how backwards the Tories were and how spineless the LibDems were but other than that), it is still possible to live your lives. Get over it, or do something about it. At least you don't live under the rule of some Hitler type guy.

We are all so lucky to have what we have, so be happy, and I believe more happiness will come to you.

Be sad and well, you'll get crap. I've seen it happen, some friends who get depressed and one problem leads to another and another, because they do not help themselves.

Happy is key :D

This was a long post...

p.s. THANKS FOR ALL LE PAGE VIEWS <3

p.p.s Oh my gosh this is spooky- I just published this, checked facebook, and the page Love just posted this picture:

Self Confidence

I have none.

To me, being happy with your appearance is what will help self confidence. Like many people I've thought for years that I want to be pretty, and like a lot of unfortunate people I was pulled into the world of photoshopped models at the age of 13 or 14 years old.

Although back in the day I did buy some make up and things, but really, trying to be the different teenager I was I pretended that I didn't care about my looks- why waste time doing stuff like that?

Funnily enough I was extremely anti-social and shy. I didn't know how to keep a conversation. I didn't think there was much wrong with my person but my shyness.
In more recent years as I got older I found that I cared a lot more, I bought make up and wouldn't leave the house until I looked decent.

Problem solved right?

Well no not really.

So much I'd think 'I want to be pretty'. I didn't really understand how to become so, I had make up and clothes, so I thought it was going to work.

Taking a line from the 2NE1 song, Ugly. It explains well what a lot of people think:

'Just like her I wanna be pretty'

Who that her is I don't know, of course I don't want to look like someone else- thats stupid, I wouldn't be me then. (Cosplay doesn't count~) But I want to be the best me I could ever hope to be.

So, now I still spend ages on my looks, but when I go out I worry what people are thinking of me, does my make up still look okay? Those people are surely judging me. Why do they seem to look more pretty than I do? They don't even seem to by shy...

Am I alone in these thoughts?

When I was younger (back in time again) I wanted to be a model- even though it was so unrealistic since I wasn't pretty or fit or even cared about current fashion- honestly I still don't, I dress how I want. But at the time I didn't do anything. Now, that thought still pops into my head. I take photos of myself to help improve my confidence, put them places so people might see them and think 'oh thats kinda nice' which really makes me happy, even for that moment, even though I don't believe I am pretty.

So still. No confidence.

Is it okay to want to be a little vain so I can walk with confidence?

Maybe I wanted to be a model but I didn't ever have the confidence to approach someone- incase they told me it would never happen.

So here I go- keep just trying to make myself look the best to me I can. Sometimes people I know might comment and say 'why are you dressing up for? We're only going to (shops/school/whatever)' I don't dress up for them, I dress up for me.

Although I do believe that everyone is beautiful, it is often the matter of how you see yourself. Everyone should be happy to the extent that they can walk and be happy, and not have to worry about how they appear, to not run away from the camera and to not think that everyone is secretly judging you.

Even though this post was quite self-self, I believe its a thing that a lot of people think, especially young adults who are most likely to have an eating disorder or something. What is the world coming to.

Remember to love yourself :)

Even if it seems like an impossible thing to do, work on it! Actually sit and think 'how can I do this?' Think about what makes you a great person.

You can't expect people to love you if you don't love yourself. You're beautiful!