An Honest Ramble (or something boring)

I swear I've started to write about Expo...just not finished yet. Believe me.

Now let me just ask, wtf is a relationship all about anyway?

This is probably one of the most personal things I've gone on about ever. I can't work out if I'm too young to know about such things, or if I'm old enough to understand. Should I understand?

As personal-y as this is, it doesn't matter xD this blog might as well be a diary with the amount of people who read it ahahaha.

As a kid you read (or get read) all these fairy tales about poor unfortunate (but pretty) girls who end up getting their dream prince and live happily ever after. How perfect.

In real life it kind of goes like, find someone, fall in love, get married, have kids. break up. How crazy is that?! How can it be true love if it breaks up? So many parents get divorced, how could you love each other so much to even have a kid(s) but then decide you don't anymore? Even examples of this in my own family -___-

What sort of example is that for me? I'm at the age for relationships right now. (Okay even 13 year olds have 'relationships' but they don't even know what they're on about until they get older.) and I can honestly say it's not something I have luck with.

Without sounding vain I can say that people have wanted a relationship with me but they just don't get it. As hard as they try (can be a true amazing gentleman even) I just don't like them that way.

Brain is there something wrong with you?

I even kind of liked someone and when they told me they liked me, I was happy but then didn't like them as much anymore wtf! I got what I wanted but then didn't want it. Saying that I'm not giving up yet. I count it as an almost relationship.

On the few (literally, few. Like oh my god) relationships I've had it's been where they liked me and I said 'yes, lets try.' and it simply didn't work. And I kept trying. I want to have a successful relationship please!

I've fallen for people one-sidedly myself, and that is not a good feeling. At all. Especially when there's no chance of them liking you back. Although it is possible to get over it.

There's got to be this true love somewhere. Or even better, love at first sight *o*

Although if love at first sight does exist I better hurry up and feel it, man I'm getting old! If it doesn't does that mean someone that I don't like much now will slowly become someone I love? How can my opinion change like that?!

Or how about this self- LIKE THE PEOPLE THAT LIKE YOU OKAY? THEY'RE PERFECT FOR YOU. LIKE. THEM. It's difficult when the person who likes you is someone who you're friends with...like I still want to spend time with them but there's gonna be that nagging thought in the back of my head saying 'they like me they like me they like me' and I don't like them back :c

I will be happy if the like is both ways :D I also kind of want to do the chasing for once...is that strange?

Whether it's having strangers asking me out at work or friend's confessing to me, I just want one of them to be something good, something great even.

I dream of having the greatest friend I could ever have and being honestly in love with them, finding nothing bad about them, wanting to spend the rest of my life with them. Being able to talk to them about anything and everything and simply to have fun!

I want to do the thing that so many people don't get. I want to fall in love, get married and stay married. You know when you see those really old couples, still together after years. Like it's adorable when I see my grandparents (gone 80) holding hands. I. Awww. Now that, is true love.

Please send some to me :D

Please?

P.s. This makes me sound depressed or something, I'm not o-o just confused for a little.

That's enough being serious for now.

Bye bye bye bye bye!

Happy First Bloggerversary!

Okay it was actually on the 13th but I got busy oops.

So I've had this blog for an entire year :D

Totally can't believe it, the year went by so fast, I remember writing my first post. I was such a dork back then omg.

And I've changed so much as well! I used to be highly strung. Very stubborn and set in my ways and what I thought and damn it got on peoples nerves! I've lightened up since then c:

I've also gotten a lot more confident, probably thanks to selcas and readers ahahaha. But I love it! I bet I'll get more confident the more I write <3 I've really changed (for the better of course) a lot.

And even though it's only been a year it's had 2 different looks!

This was the first! I loved it until I got sick of seeing my face like that wtf

Although I'm still proud of my non-editing skills <3 I made it blend into the background. Be proud! I am I am!

 

I had this as my profile picture thing too c:

 

And for my future self, when I probably change the layout I'm going to put a picture of the current one too. (Yes I drew the cakes. Ahaha what kind of artist am I?!)

 

Wouldn't have guessed that it took me ages

Oh who am I kidding, they're totally adorable

 

Heading! Did you notice the crown is the same as it is on the cakes? I bet you didn't~

 



And just when you'd had enough of my face.

 

But seriously guys, thank you so much. Thanks for reading, thanks for coming back c: and I hope you keep on doing so ^-^

I'm not very good at sentimental...I love you!

 

So here's my own little celebration~ (oh yeah, I'm blonde now)

 

THANK YOU <3

OO7D?

Because so many bloggers have amazing fashion and always look really nice and plan their outfits. And I really don't.

I always look at fashion stuff, mostly Japanese, but I never dress up! So here is my very boring outfit of the day for 7 days ':3

It was actually still cold when I took most of these.

Number one. What I wore to work~

 

Two. Casual day with my beloved 2NE1 hat <3

3! Going to hang out with my friend~

 

And cause I really liked my make-up that day, you can have this too c:

 

Another work day and I'm freaking royalty.

I said to my sister that I wouldn't wear the tiara in public...

 

Most recent! My new wig. new skirt. new top. New Look (I'm hilarious) Love love love love

And now it's finally SUMMER!

 

And finally 7. I didn't write this in order at all. Oh well :D I think this was a casual day...I don't remember. But anyway.

 

That's about as interesting as it get folks c: I need to go shopping.

 

Bye~<3