I was the or not.
Since then Ive been doing mostly badly. My mood went up and down like a roller coaster, the up times were great but the down were the worst. Ive never felt so bad, and for what? There was literally no trigger.
It was about the time of wanting to die, self harm and smoking did I think 'I need help'
I went to the doctors and after years of going up and down I got help. Im on anti-depressants. Theyll take about 2 weeks to kick in so until then Im a bit on edge.
I never really understood depression until I felt it myself, you really cant snap out of it. And as much as the stigma is still attached its not attention seeking.
Nobody wants to feel like dying. People dont want to cry for no reason. To want to throw themself in front of a car because they see no future for themselves.
And nobody deserves to feel that way. If youre struggling, please get help. I panicked so much before going to the doctors but now Im glad I did. She was lovely and they are there to help.
I for one cant wait to get my life back on track. Maybe I'll actually get back into all the things I used to love.
Although rn I just need to change how I think. Cause I feel like Im using it as an excuse now? Even though I know its a real thing that Im having to take stuff for. It is ridiculous that I of all people am suffering.
Although once I understand that and am feeling better myself I want to help others who are suffering. And to educate people on depression because I figure so many people have no idea what theyre dealing with. Im quite sure my parents dont. And in the past I wouldnt know what to do either.
Moral of the story- dont be afraid to get help and dont be afraid to tell the people around you so they can help
So that was my poorly written announcement. I dont care who knows about it, it doesnt need to be a secret.
The only way is up~ or something c:
Ive got Expo to go to, much up thank you <3
