Show Ho

I never go to shows but recently (June) I've been to two. <3

First I went to see Swan Lake at the freaking ROYAL ALBERT HALL. It was a birthday present from my nan *o* so we went together.

Went looking like this.

I got those ear rings special...although damn they're heavy -__-

 

My ticket <3 so fancy

 

We've arrived!

 

Woah hello Royal Albert Hall! <3

 

Haha excuse the coach window reflection ><

 

I have actually been there before, when I was a kid there was a huge school choir thing which my school was part of ^-^ so that was cool. I also saw Swan Lake before but I was so young I don't even remember it ':3

 

Now we're in!

 

Me and my nan ^-^ check out that lighting

 

I love you naaaaan~ <3

 

The small set. The rest of the space was for the dancers!

 

And oh my god were those dancers AMAZING <3 wow! I bet my face looked like o: the whole time haha! I can't believe it, I've never appreciated ballet before, but now I can really see how beautiful it is~

 

I'm couldn't be that graceful if I tried.

 

The 'swans' were especially pretty~

 

And even though I said I couldn't remember it from before, I actually remembered the music! Ahhh it was great <3 Thank you for taking me to see it nan ^o^

 

 

So next up was Cats (The Musical) apparently you have to put that bit in.

 

I went with a couple of friends, one of them nagged us to come. And boy am I glad I did! It was BRILLIANT.

 

Okay before I get too into that, here is what I wore (tried to make it a little bit cat like no?)

 

Okay maybe just the poses wtf

 

It was nowhere fancy since it was touring, so we were damn lucky to get to see it ^-^ I had actually seen it before...but not like with Swan Lake, I'd seen it when they showed a recorded version on TV when I was really little. And apparently, according to my dad, as soon as it finished I asked if I could watch it again aw <3

 

Our view was so central!

 

This was taken at the end, when we sat in different seats to wait for the crowd to clear, but just so you can see the lights they had too~

 

Okay so my younger self expressed her love for Cats, and now my current self ADORED IT. SO MUCH. <3

 

Right from the very start I was hooked. All the songs were brilliant, all the characters. Those people, boy could they dance, sing and act like cats! Wooaahhhh *o*

 

I was exhausted when I got home, so I went to bed, but early next morning I bought the entire soundtrack <3<3<3 which went really well with my new phone case! Which is still on my phone now~

 

(I also got a crush on a fictional cat what)

 

I don't think I can even express how much I loved it hehehehe. I hope it comes back again, I need to watch it. I MUST.

 

Okay I'm done. You know it's amazing right? Right.

 

BYE DARLINGS <3

 

Oh My God

So this is only my second update this month, and the months nearly over wtf.

I keep getting ill ohmygod. Health/mood wise, but I'm not gonna write about it cause it'll be like 'you're depressed' or 'attention whore' so yeah. No.

But anyway while I'm not updating I'll write about some things that's happened this month~ (blog, I missed you <3)

I changed my hair again! It was blonde, then I put blue on the end ^o^ although if you follow my Tumblr you already knew this.

I MISS IT ALREADY ;A;

 

Why do I miss you ask? Because it's dark brown now. I did it today. How to miss your old hair, look at nice pictures of it and then look at your makeup-less face with your new hair. -___-

 

 

I'll love it tomorrow I'm sure. I'll even take a selca~

 

I also discovered that I'm not the only one who hates being flirted with! I thought I'd whine about it on Facebook and some of my friends agreed with me aw c:

 

Damn worse time was only the other day when this half drunk guy would not leave me alone on the train. It was 10am. Who has been drinking before then? I wish I was forward enough to tell him to shove of wtf.

 

Oh I went to Hyper Japan! Not like you weren't expecting that, and it was amazing of course, and I need to write about it...and Expo and my birthday...which was 3 months ago.

 

(Iblamebeingill)

 

I do actually have half posts written. I'll finish them I promise!

 

Don't forget me <3

 

Love love love love!

How to Confident

    con·fi·dent  

         /ˈkänfidənt/

Adjective         1. Feeling or showing confidence in oneself; self-assured.         2. Feeling or showing certainty about something.   Confidence is something that I've learnt to have, especially in the last year. And I wish I could tell younger me how to do it.   There was never a point growing up where I didn't feel shy or insecure. During nursery school (so age 3) I have a vague memory of building a tower of bricks with someone, but other than that I was just by myself, I only spoke to the teachers there, mainly, my favourite.   Apparently they suggested I was tested for selective mutism (where with parents you can be just a normal chatty kid, but anywhere else just no) or something. But no, I was just really really shy. (And as I've previously mentioned somewhere, I was even shy of people in my family I didn't see often) I spent all those years growing up just not really wanting to talk to people, not putting my hand up in class even if I knew the answer. Every year teachers would tell my parents that I needed to speak up more. Even at secondary school. So I didn't have many friends (although the ones I got are awesome I love them). I couldn't ask people for things, like in class (I ended up being put in a small class without any of my friends and I hated it) if I didn't have a pen, I never asked to borrow one, I just used a pencil instead wtf -__- I actually have a memory in primary school when I didn't have a pen and we had a scary cover teacher, so I just kept looking at the book we were getting quotes from and then when this scary teacher asked me about it I burst into tears and said I felt ill and got dismissed from the class. Oh my god self. you are. So. Stupid. When I was a teenager (in that class, by myself. (thisiswhyIdidn'tlikeschool)) I wasn't bullied really, but this one girl in my class (one of those two faced people, alright one minute, horrible the next) sometimes made little comments, they were nothing really but to me they were everything and I didn't like them one bit. I remember her once saying to one of her friends 'why don't you work with Steph' (ohmygod that's my name.) in this voice as if to say she's such a loser go and degrade yourself by working with her. ;A; BUT that time a lovely lovely classmate told her to leave me alone. Jess I love you forever for that! So it started off as just really shy, and then became insecure, especially not being able to spend a lot of time in class away from my friends, so comments always got to me. And then how I looked came into the pile. What crap is this. Too much shy. Too much. Anyway. Since the title of this post is 'How to Confident' I should really start getting to the point and stop talking about how I was shy. I can't say 'oh look at me I'm so confident now' because I'm not. But I can tell you this- my confidence has skyrocketed in the past year (like I said) and now I'm gonna share how. I can't tell my younger self this but I can tell you c: The thing that I found that was holding me back was.....me. I was my worst critic. I wasn't really bullied but I told myself I was good enough. Wasn't pretty enough. Everybody does it, beats themselves up. But why? It doesn't help you at all, especially if you're already unhappy with yourself. First of all, fixing the general shy problem that I had grown up with didn't come naturally, it's not even 'advice', I was forced to be more confident. After leaving school I couldn't get away with not saying much and just getting on with things, I had to look for jobs, I had to talk to people I've never met before just to get along. And once I got that job, again I had to talk to so many people, be polite to them. When I was younger I wouldn't have dreamed of being able to do that! I never used to be able to even buy stuff from people in a shop because I was too damn scared to talk to the staff, but now I'm on the other side and I can talk to all these people and I'm not nervous at all! If I had stayed as shy as I had been before I probably wouldn't have even gotten the job in the first place. So no not everyone is forced out into the world so here's where the next part comes in handy~ As I said, how I looked was a mega problem, still is one but less so. And again repeating myself, I always brought myself down. I was like 'I'm so ugly, I'm so fat, this is why people don't like me.' (Aha it's actually not fun writing this stuff;;) But now! The answer to me bringing myself down was, bringing myself back up again :D Everyday I started telling myself 'Hey. You look good today.' Fuck I didn't believe myself for a second, I didn't think this was going to work. I was like...this is such a stupid idea it makes me sound vain. Although I continued, started to pick out things that I liked about how I looked and eventually, I started to believe myself. Without reminding myself, I found myself thinking 'oh actually I look alright.' :'D CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! This, along with actually focusing on stuff like make up and clothes and hair (before I never did, no wonder I thought I was ugly), really helped! I didn't have to go outside and think 'oh no everybody's looking at me I look awful', I just went outside, knowing that I didn't have to worry about it. I swear, do this. Even if it's not for appearance, tell yourself that you're great, a good person, you're confident, whatever, and you'll believe yourself! As you should. Because you really are all those things <3 It just sometimes takes a while to know it. I still have to work on boosting myself up every now and then, but it's not a complete process, although my confidence builds every day and I'm so glad for it. All it took was for me to start believing in myself. Imagine where I would be if I knew this when I was 12 ay. I hope that this could actually help someone...if even a little. Cause I know these things helped me c: Good luck~ P.S. Another confidence boost came from my little no-makeup challenge in March ^ ^

I'm going to Hyper Japan!

OHMYGOD I'M SO EXCITED <3

Incase the title didn't give it away, I'm going to Hyper Japan this weekend (Saturday 27th) for one day!

I've never been before so this is just, ah, so so so brilliant!

I'll be cosplaying Renzo Shima from Blue Exorcist (again) and we've even got a little group going on *o* I love having a little group~

And incase you forgot how I look as Shima:

That quality. Yeah I haven't taken any Shima pictures in a while ;n;

BWEEEHEHEHEHEE SEE YOU THERE (ifyouregoingofcourse)

P.s. as a follow up to me now somewhat kind of but not really being on YouTube, I uploaded a new video! Since I did a picture Gwiyomi a few months ago, I've now been brave enough to do a video one (even though nobody cares about Gwiyomi anymore)

So here it is!

 

Bye bye~

SunnyTube?!

Hey! Time for something new!

I made a vlog!

My friend has been nagging me for ages saying that I would be good vlogger because I blog...I don't think this video proves her right, but check it out anyway <3

 I filmed it on my webcam so excuse the video quality...and the sound quality. Omg you can really see how shy I am here ><

Okay enough whining I'm proud I actually made one! I hope you guys enjoyed ;u;

Back to real blogging soon.

P.s. IT'S SO HOT IN ENGLAND RIGHT NOW HELP.

Liebster Award~

Ta-daaaaaa~

 



Thank you Nyanette/ Shining-Dreamer/ Amazing Blue for this award! (Check out her blog here, she loves Japanese fashion, need any more reason?!)

From what I gathered a Liebster (German word, means beloved, darling things along those lines aw) Award is given to new up and coming bloggers *o*

And so I copy-pasted the rules from there c:

• You must answer the 11 questions set by the blogger who nominated you.
• You must then pick 11 blogs who have under 200 followers and think of 11 questions for those.
• Finally, link back to the blog that nominated you.

Here are her 11 questions! (And my answers of course psh):

Who is your style icon/hero (if you have one)?
It depends on what mood I'm in, sometimes I look at 2NE1 and am in love with their clothes, so Jeremy Scott wins there. But then I can look at Harajuku stuff and say Kyary Pamyu Pamyu ...so yeah, changes.

What are you 3 favourite things to do?
Eat, Sleep, Blog. Okay no that's boring I love seeing my friends, doing make up and okay gonna add blogging again.

Who would play you in the movie of your life?
Jenna-Louise Coleman. Not because shes like me at all, but because she's so damn pretty. Makesmelookgood.

If you could only wear one outfit for the rest of your life, which one would you wear?
My Miku cosplay! I'd feel like a princess 24/7 *o*

What would be the theme song to your life?
The Climb- Miley Cyrus wtfwtf. Okay it's all about journey and changing to get to where ever, and I do a lot of that. It's the best I can think of right now~

If you could be any animal for the day, which one would it be?
CAT DUH =^.^=

What is your favourite song by your favourite band?
Well favourite band...group...is Super Junior, and my favourite of theirs is No Other <3

If you could have any superpower, which would you have and why?
Do you have any idea how hard this question is?! I'm going with being able to fly, because it'd make getting places so much easier! Want to go to Japan? Can't afford plane ticket? No problem!

What is your favourite sandwich filling?
Ham!...Wait is that boring?

What is your favourite fashion brand?
Oh now this question is difficult too. Do. Not. Have. Idk I like just items not brands.

What is the worst film you've ever read?
Wait...the worst film...I ever read...I...you mean watched? Um. Okay it's this surrealist Czech film Alice. Based off Alice in Wonderland but its so DAMN CREEPY. And not even. I- don't watch it.  But here's some clips from it anyway. I hope you don't need sleep.

Questions done :D

And heres mine to ask you...well actually I don't know 11 bloggers. Heck I don't even read that many blogs. So, yeah just gonna nominate...

The gorgeous Tunika!

Ineedtogetsomebloggerfriends.

If I find any more I'll tag them too~ Oh back to the point, my questions!

1. If you could dye your hair any colour, what colour would it be?
2. What is your favourite fashion style?
3. What idol/ celebrity would you marry? (ahahaha)
4. If you ruled the world, what is the first thing you would do?
5. What came first, the chicken or the egg?
6. Dogs...or cats?
7. Why are you so great? Come on, why?
8. What is your favourite season and why?
9. If you could only use one make up product for the rest of your life (eg. eyeliner/ foundation) what would it be?
10. If somebody asked you to drop everything and travel through space where no-one has ever gone before- would you?
11. What's your dream job/life?

Have fun answering! I know I did ^-^

An Honest Ramble (or something boring)

I swear I've started to write about Expo...just not finished yet. Believe me.

Now let me just ask, wtf is a relationship all about anyway?

This is probably one of the most personal things I've gone on about ever. I can't work out if I'm too young to know about such things, or if I'm old enough to understand. Should I understand?

As personal-y as this is, it doesn't matter xD this blog might as well be a diary with the amount of people who read it ahahaha.

As a kid you read (or get read) all these fairy tales about poor unfortunate (but pretty) girls who end up getting their dream prince and live happily ever after. How perfect.

In real life it kind of goes like, find someone, fall in love, get married, have kids. break up. How crazy is that?! How can it be true love if it breaks up? So many parents get divorced, how could you love each other so much to even have a kid(s) but then decide you don't anymore? Even examples of this in my own family -___-

What sort of example is that for me? I'm at the age for relationships right now. (Okay even 13 year olds have 'relationships' but they don't even know what they're on about until they get older.) and I can honestly say it's not something I have luck with.

Without sounding vain I can say that people have wanted a relationship with me but they just don't get it. As hard as they try (can be a true amazing gentleman even) I just don't like them that way.

Brain is there something wrong with you?

I even kind of liked someone and when they told me they liked me, I was happy but then didn't like them as much anymore wtf! I got what I wanted but then didn't want it. Saying that I'm not giving up yet. I count it as an almost relationship.

On the few (literally, few. Like oh my god) relationships I've had it's been where they liked me and I said 'yes, lets try.' and it simply didn't work. And I kept trying. I want to have a successful relationship please!

I've fallen for people one-sidedly myself, and that is not a good feeling. At all. Especially when there's no chance of them liking you back. Although it is possible to get over it.

There's got to be this true love somewhere. Or even better, love at first sight *o*

Although if love at first sight does exist I better hurry up and feel it, man I'm getting old! If it doesn't does that mean someone that I don't like much now will slowly become someone I love? How can my opinion change like that?!

Or how about this self- LIKE THE PEOPLE THAT LIKE YOU OKAY? THEY'RE PERFECT FOR YOU. LIKE. THEM. It's difficult when the person who likes you is someone who you're friends with...like I still want to spend time with them but there's gonna be that nagging thought in the back of my head saying 'they like me they like me they like me' and I don't like them back :c

I will be happy if the like is both ways :D I also kind of want to do the chasing for once...is that strange?

Whether it's having strangers asking me out at work or friend's confessing to me, I just want one of them to be something good, something great even.

I dream of having the greatest friend I could ever have and being honestly in love with them, finding nothing bad about them, wanting to spend the rest of my life with them. Being able to talk to them about anything and everything and simply to have fun!

I want to do the thing that so many people don't get. I want to fall in love, get married and stay married. You know when you see those really old couples, still together after years. Like it's adorable when I see my grandparents (gone 80) holding hands. I. Awww. Now that, is true love.

Please send some to me :D

Please?

P.s. This makes me sound depressed or something, I'm not o-o just confused for a little.

That's enough being serious for now.

Bye bye bye bye bye!